Monthly Archives: December 2012

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HOLIDAY CHEER

IT’S GETTING EASIER TO NOT BE SOOOOOO SELF CONSCIOUS ABOUT MY WEIGHT THE MORE I OPEN UP ABOUT THE WAY I VIEW MYSELF. WHAT HAS HELPED ME THE MOST IS TALKING WITH FRIENDS AND FAMILY ABOUT HOW I FEEL, THEN GETTING A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE ABOUT MY FEELINGS. SOMETIMES ITS HARD TO STOP THE WHEELS FROM TURNING WHEN I’AM IN RESTAURANTS THE SMELL OF FOOD, THE ATMOSPHERE, PEOPLE LAUGHING HAVING A GREAT TIME. ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT IS. WHAT CAN I ORDER TO ENSURE THAT I GET AS MUCH FOOD AS I CAN WITHOUT GOING OVER MY DAILY CALORIE INTAKE. SO NOW I FIND MYSELF MULLING OVER THE MENU. IF I ORDER THIS I CANT HAVE THIS SO ON AND SO ON IT GOES. I HAVE BECOME THAT PERSON I BECAME SO IMPATIENT WITH, YOU KNOW WHEN THE WAITER COMES TO TAKE EVERYONE’S ORDER BUT THEY CAN’T DECIDE. WELL THAT WAS ME THE OTHER NIGHT. FINALLY JUST ORDERED THE DAMN SALAD. I HAD A GREAT TIME. STARTING TO UNDERSTAND IT’S NOT SO MUCH ABOUT THE FOOD. IT’S MORE ABOUT THE PEOPLE AROUND THE TABLE. SLOWLY BUT SURELY COMING AROUND TO THIS WORLD THAT DOES NOT REVOLVE AROUND FOOD. HOPE YOU AND YOU’RE FAMILY HAVE THE BEST CHRISTMAS EVER 

A VERY INSPIRATIONAL AND UPLIFTING READ FOR ME. THANK YOU PERPETUALFLANEUR.

as i see it

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Today, I write with a new perspective, a fresh take on life, as my recent experience has taught me. The timing has never been perfect. The events that transpired provide a perfect closure to this year and offer a beginning for the next. But before losing myself in the thought of my past and the idea of having a future, let me express how I am grateful for this present, my present.

What am I vaguely describing and alluding to? Have I been touched by the Universe so deeply that I have recently reevaluated how I would like to choose to live my life? Well, there comes a time in one’s life, out of the many if I may say, when we encounter instances that may not change one drastically but at least it serves as a single spark that can rouse a sleeping atom. Unfortunately, my brief encounter had…

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looking inside me

DURING MY MOURNING MEDITATION. SEARCHING THROUGH MY THOUGHTS. A SINGLE THOUGH KEPT COMING TO THE FORE FRONT. DO I TRULY LOVE MYSELF ENOUGH TO KEEP TRYING? THE ANSWER IS YES. OBVIOUSLY I FIND THE WAY I AM OBJECTIONABLE SO, WHY IS IT SO DIFFICULT TO BE GOOD TO MYSELF WHEN IT COMES TO EATING HEALTHY. THE CONCLUSION I CAME TO AFTER TALKING WITH A DEAR FRIEND IS THAT I STILL BELIEVE FOOD IS COMFORTING AND THOUGH FLEETING EVERYTHING IN THE WORLD IS JUST FIND WHEN I AM EATING. SURE EVERYONE LIKES GREAT TASTING FOOD BUT MOST DON’T VIEW FOOD THE WAY I DO.THEY ARE NOT CONSTANTLY THINKING ABOUT WHAT THAT WILL EAT  MOURNING NOON AND NIGHT. THROUGHOUT  THE DAY EVEN THE DAY BEFORE I AM PLANING OUT MY MEALS. SO NOW I AM PLANING MEALS THAT I WOULD NEVER HAVE THOUGHT OF EATING BEFORE. IT HAS TAKEN A TOLL ON MY ROMANCE WITH FOOD. THANK GOD I CAN SEE SOME RESULTS IN THE MIRROR TO GET SOME MUCH NEEDED MOTIVATION.I AM FINDING OUT THAT 17 YEARS OF BAD THINKING WILL NOT BE REPROGRAMMED IN A COUPLE MONTHS.THE KEY FOR ME IS BEING ACCOUNTABLE FOR MY ACTIONS THROUGH GREAT FRIENDS AND BEING COMPLETELY HONEST WITH THEM ABOUT HOW I AM FEELING.SELF PITY COMES INTO PLAY VERY EASILY IF I CHOSE TO DWELL ON THOSE THOUGHTS.THEN GIVING UP SEEMS TO BE SANE. SO NOW IF I DON’T PREPARE MY OWN MEALS FOR THE DAY.I CALL MY FRIENDS THAT KNOW I AM DIETING TO TELL THEM WHAT I ATE. IT REALLY HELPS ME TO BE ACCOUNTABLE. FUNNY THING HAPPENED I REALIZED THEY ARE REALLY CONCERNED AND ARE TRULY SUPPORTIVE OF ME. WHY I THOUGHT I COULD  DO THIS ALONE WAS STUPID. ITS MUCH EASIER FOR ME TO HAVE FRIENDS INVOLVED.

New Tool To Help Dieters Stay On Track

encouragement that i needed for today

CBS Miami

MIAMI (CBSMiami) – There’s a new tool to help dieters stay on track, which is especially helpful now in the midst of the holidays.

Karen Kofalt has lost 50 pounds since having a baby a year ago. She’s gone from a size 14, to a size 10.

“It’s an everyday battle,” said Karen.

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Even though she does all the right stuff, working out regularly and counting calories, like most dieters Karen hit a plateau.

“I think a lot of people can relate to getting back to work and be a full time working mom and running a household and trying to find that work balance, and the weight loss sort of slowed up,” said Karen.

It was slow until she tried a new program, created by a colleague. It’s a website called Friendship Weight, where friends get regular updates on your weight loss.

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MY SEARCH FOR THE TRUTH!!

ON THIS JOURNEY CALLED LIFE.I HAVE DECIDED THAT IT IS TIME FOR ME TO TAKE A SERIOUS LOOK AT WHAT I HAVE ALLOWED MYSELF TO BECOME. I CAN NOT BLAME ANY OF THE FAST FOOD RESTAURANTS FOR BEING THE WAY I AM. NONE OF THEM NOT ONE, EVER FORCED ME INTO THEIR ESTABLISHMENT. THE CHOICE WAS MINE AND MINE ALONE.THE OLD EXCUSES THAT I HAVE USED IN THE PAST ARE NO LONGER WORKING FOR ME. ITS FAST ITS CHEAPER TO EAT THERE, THAN THE GROCERY STORE. WHAT B@#^ S*@#% EVERY TIME I LOOK IN THE MIRROR HOW CAN I BELIEVE THAT LIE, I TOLD MYSELF. NOW I FIND MYSELF LOOKING BACK AT THAT DREADED FOUR LETTER WORD,DIET. 

WHO IS THIS GUY?

WHO IS THIS GUY?